For the last few weeks I’ve been particularly self-conscious. I feel like almost every interaction I end up in comes off awkward or poorly. The last two times I went out in public I felt this to the point of being seriously uncomfortable with the situation and with my interactions with people.
This isn’t normal for me, at all. I think it partially has to do with the fact that Vika and I have made a number of commitments that require that I really don’t slip up for the next month or so. I keep coming back to the point that I am what I am, regardless of my running narrative about who I am.
Doesn’t make me any less anxious, or make me want to hang out with anyone more. If I’ve been at all difficult in your interaction with me over the last few weeks, I apologise.